A confession from a control freak and other ramblings

Why is it that once I get something the way I want it, I can't just be happy? Am I going to fight myself my entire life? I'm not talking about life altering events here but they seem to be all consuming at the time. Is the world going to end if the dishes aren't done when I want them done or the garbage isn't emptied as soon as it's full - No - but I make myself crazy thinking that it will. I really need to become more like my aunt who is Buddhist and has a better life than I ever will. I am certainly not going to be at peace with muchof anything in life until I'm at peace with myself. It sounds so easy...if it only were so easy.

On a completely different subject...

I have a meeting to attend this coming week in which myself and a fellow user as "acting reps" expect to receive the brunt of the negative feedback over some gate vandalism that has taken place in the backcountry. From previous encounters, it has been gang up on the newcomer or the most visible minority in order to deflect responsibility or something worse.

I hope to help those who would point fingers at us realize that they are simply creating more conflict at the expense of their cause and ours. We have a common adversary – STUPIDITY. I'm getting a little fed up with being labeled a "bad guy" for no reason other than I drive a truck off-road. What they are attempting to do is no different than any other form of discrimination. Being anti-truck is no different than being anti-black, anti-gay or anti-Semitic; it is still just discrimination solely on the basis of a specific trait or characteristic. Just as they know not to generalize that all teenagers are bad they should also know not to paint us all with the same brush.

Now that I have had my little rant I'll attempt to make what I've said palatable and politically correct for a less than ideal audience. Mind you, if the audience was ideal, then I wouldn't need to say anything because they'd have the same view as me...so in fact I'm better off with the audience I'll have for the meeting because I have a chance at changing a few minds. Very interesting.

So... should I wear a skirt just to throw the finger-pointers off just that much more? It isn't something I would normally wear but if it would help push things off balance just enough for them to at least listen to what I have to say, it might just be worth the hassle of shaving and putting on pantyhose.

It better not be -30 that day or I'll be in true fighting form. Don't mess with a woman who has braved bare legs on a day like that... you are just asking for it. You know it has been a while since I've needed my "scorching stare". I'm sure it still works, it just might work more like wall of fire than a targeted flame.