G helps call my inner demon's bluff...

While perusing some of my favorite blogs I came across "The Period of Mourning" post by G, which hit a chord with me.

I now have better understanding of why I procrastinate so much. The pathological perfectionist within me would rather have nothing at all to show for my work than have something that is not exactly what I envisioned. My inner demon paralyzes me or sabotages most of my attemps at completing anything well. And when I do get something done well, my inner perfectionist takes all the credit.

I know that I don't let go of things and I have a great deal of trouble dealing with the loss of even the silliest things (chapstick, favorite pen) let alone the big stuff that really matters. So using G's elegant analogy, if I procrastinate on projects in order to avoid the need to mourn them.--do I really have anything to mourn over at all? Shouldn't I mourn the fact that nothing was created or learned which inherently is the real loss? I wander and wonder...

On that note, boys and girls--it is time for me to spend money on some cognitive therapy...